wake me up and i will snap

dear blowing my nose diary,

im positive i have lost a good portion of my brain. i blew my nose and there it went. fuck. it will be all downhill from here. in my dream lastnight- i had forgotten how to read and i got left behind in the parking lot by people who supposedly 'loved' me. some old friends came along and saved me- after we smoked pot. man that was nice, i haven't seen them in so long- and the pot was amazing. convincing them i got left behind for reasons other than the truth- that was harder than i thought- all they did was laugh and smoke pot. all in all- it wasn't such a bad dream- i was with my old friends- smoking pot. i think the only distress i ever felt in my dream was watching my car drive away. but after it was gone a wave of relief came over me and then happiness once i smoked the pot. when i woke up for the second time today, i realized i didn't get left in a parking lot. then i searched through my old drawer and found my box to see if there was any pot. there wasn't- and if there was it would suck. damn my luck.