dear went to bed and got back up diary,
my ringer may be off- but that didn't stop me from SEEING my phone ring. it was my dad. i knew it was bad. he doesn't call at ten at night for nothing. steve died. and that is that. but it sucks bad you know. a parent should never see their child die, a child they have tried so very hard to love and protect. it would be hard not to assume as a parent- that you should be going next. my aunt and uncle are such wonderful people- i told daddy he should go out there. i told him he would be such a great comfort to his sister in her grief he could share. i am thankful steve's kids are grown and graduated from college. they both are super smart and have solid heads full of knowledge. steve was able to raise those kids until they were mature and understood- the choices they make in life right now deem them forever bad or good. i love my family- each one of them and i hate the pain death brings- but steve is with my mom now and i know that will make her sing.
my ringer may be off- but that didn't stop me from SEEING my phone ring. it was my dad. i knew it was bad. he doesn't call at ten at night for nothing. steve died. and that is that. but it sucks bad you know. a parent should never see their child die, a child they have tried so very hard to love and protect. it would be hard not to assume as a parent- that you should be going next. my aunt and uncle are such wonderful people- i told daddy he should go out there. i told him he would be such a great comfort to his sister in her grief he could share. i am thankful steve's kids are grown and graduated from college. they both are super smart and have solid heads full of knowledge. steve was able to raise those kids until they were mature and understood- the choices they make in life right now deem them forever bad or good. i love my family- each one of them and i hate the pain death brings- but steve is with my mom now and i know that will make her sing.