April 4, 2011

dumb stupid people

dear holding me up diary,

catastrophic differences, that is what we have here. i have no reason to stand by any other beliefs but my own and that is what i fully intend on doing now- and from now on. i mean- i cant honestly be thought to defend, or drum up a defense otherwise and even iffin i did- it would be all but worthless or meaningless- and pretty much a waste of your time AND mine. so no, i'm not into wasting time today- or tomorrow- but i do have a block i could offer up next week- if you need it- but not for that- for anything but that. i sold tadpoles door to door as a child- promising they'd turn in to magic frogs one day. only mrs. swanson bought one. she paid me a quarter. i gave her two, for being my very first (and only) customer. soon after (and somehow) my mother found out what i was up to and came and got me in the ford granada. she took me home and made kraft deluxe macaroni and cheese, which i ate on my raggedy ann and andy plate with raised edges, and she swatted my ass and sent me upstairs to bed for a well deserved (and needed) nap. i saw mrs. swanson down at the pond with my mom, LAUGHING, turning all my tadpoles loose into the water through my window while i was supposed to be sleeping. even the ones mrs. swanson had just bought. and they were JUST getting ready to turn into magic frogs.