dear awake again and requesting proof diary,
a man was once jailed for proclaiming the earth was round and i myself have been a pawn on the big chess board of the justice system- so i am telling you right now, nothing is as it seems when you think you know- even when you DO know. i know i never sat on the window off that truck and yelled down the road- because my window would not roll down- or i prolly would have. it's as simple as that. how do i know what i want to say is falling upon the right ears? to i just take the chance and tell it to the entire jury? because you know i will. i never thought i was good enough- never thought i measured up to the quality of standards of which you held yourself to. i don't like to dress up and i don't like to first class and i don't like to spend money and i don't like the big dumb houses and fancy white shit you gotta keep clean- i'm practical. i like to eat and live and get dirty and most of all- HAVE FUN. but now seeing your life from the outside like i have, and all the nasty bitches you've had since and before, and now, and getting to know your ugly ass wife, MY GOD, and i get called the whore. that's fine. i know i gave you the most HONEST AND TRUE love you will ever have IN YOUR LIFE. there was a time i loved you more than ANY of your wives. ida moved Heaven and earth to be your one and only- it breaks my heart to know when you looked in my eyes it was all so fucking phony. i gave you the benefit of the doubt until your benefits all ran out and you still kept trying to access the account and finally it was time to give mommy a shout. and now we are here?
a man was once jailed for proclaiming the earth was round and i myself have been a pawn on the big chess board of the justice system- so i am telling you right now, nothing is as it seems when you think you know- even when you DO know. i know i never sat on the window off that truck and yelled down the road- because my window would not roll down- or i prolly would have. it's as simple as that. how do i know what i want to say is falling upon the right ears? to i just take the chance and tell it to the entire jury? because you know i will. i never thought i was good enough- never thought i measured up to the quality of standards of which you held yourself to. i don't like to dress up and i don't like to first class and i don't like to spend money and i don't like the big dumb houses and fancy white shit you gotta keep clean- i'm practical. i like to eat and live and get dirty and most of all- HAVE FUN. but now seeing your life from the outside like i have, and all the nasty bitches you've had since and before, and now, and getting to know your ugly ass wife, MY GOD, and i get called the whore. that's fine. i know i gave you the most HONEST AND TRUE love you will ever have IN YOUR LIFE. there was a time i loved you more than ANY of your wives. ida moved Heaven and earth to be your one and only- it breaks my heart to know when you looked in my eyes it was all so fucking phony. i gave you the benefit of the doubt until your benefits all ran out and you still kept trying to access the account and finally it was time to give mommy a shout. and now we are here?