dear hostile colors don't surprise me diary,
i do whatever it takes to stay where i am. sometimes it takes a LOT. sometimes i almost have to chain myself to the floor here in some kind of attempt not to run away, except i have no place to go and in the past whenever i've run away- i always seem to find my way back here eventually- which is why i think i finally gave up running in the first place. then i got liposuction. which helped some, but really i wish ida saved that money for the lawyer a year later. nevertheless, i'm still here and things are as they always have been- except- my heart is still alive. my whole house needs painted. i realize this.
i do whatever it takes to stay where i am. sometimes it takes a LOT. sometimes i almost have to chain myself to the floor here in some kind of attempt not to run away, except i have no place to go and in the past whenever i've run away- i always seem to find my way back here eventually- which is why i think i finally gave up running in the first place. then i got liposuction. which helped some, but really i wish ida saved that money for the lawyer a year later. nevertheless, i'm still here and things are as they always have been- except- my heart is still alive. my whole house needs painted. i realize this.