August 4, 2011

lighter fluids

dear earn it or burn it diary,

these days it so painfully obvious what i've done wrong over the years. the mistakes stick out like splinters in my chin. i have some regrets. i trusted in my heart because my heart had never led my so far astray before, but there's a first time for everything. jibber jabber.. i know, but it's still so new- the getting used to it part. nobody told me it would be this hard to get myself- oh how do i put this- back where i was... oh maybe- if i wanted to go there. but i don't. i didn't get picked. again. by him. or them. i'll never ask again. i was already picked twice- which was fucking really nice- and someday i'll get those splinters from my chin.