dear triggers diary,
because the best side of my old house was on the news last night- that is why i dreamed i moved back in there. i always dream we live on william street anyway- the house where everything started changing. sometimes i dream there is a sick man being held in the basement. sometimes i see all my things are still there- just the way i left them. when i do drive by there today- i cringe at the mere sight of the condition of the place- and console myself all the way home by reminding over and over, "it did NOT look that way when you lived there my dear, not even on the WORST of days." how is it that the house next door that ALWAYS looked like shit- still looks the exact same though- and the news lady just now called it, "dilapidated?" i don't understand that. i have ten thousand pictures of that beautiful house i loved so much and could have lived in forever. you can see the love in each one and know the subjects and walls are happy. i don't bother taking many pictures of the place these days, for me it no longer meets my standards. but i hope the people who live there now are pleased with all of their efforts.
because the best side of my old house was on the news last night- that is why i dreamed i moved back in there. i always dream we live on william street anyway- the house where everything started changing. sometimes i dream there is a sick man being held in the basement. sometimes i see all my things are still there- just the way i left them. when i do drive by there today- i cringe at the mere sight of the condition of the place- and console myself all the way home by reminding over and over, "it did NOT look that way when you lived there my dear, not even on the WORST of days." how is it that the house next door that ALWAYS looked like shit- still looks the exact same though- and the news lady just now called it, "dilapidated?" i don't understand that. i have ten thousand pictures of that beautiful house i loved so much and could have lived in forever. you can see the love in each one and know the subjects and walls are happy. i don't bother taking many pictures of the place these days, for me it no longer meets my standards. but i hope the people who live there now are pleased with all of their efforts.
