dear talking on the phone diary,
i am glad we had our talk. i feel so much better. asking all those questions and getting truthful answers- beyond my wildest expectations- but then- how was i to know what was the truth or not- really- it all sounded the same to me. but i felt better. relieved somehow- but i never asked you to undo what you'd done to me- and that was the sole purpose for my even speaking to you at all. i realized while we spoke- it was the only thing that kept us 'together' and once that tie was also broken- there would be nothing else. i decided to keep it- 'til further notice,' and let someone else decide when it would finally end. it made me feel important IN MY DREAM, but it makes me feel stupid in REAL LIFE.
i am glad we had our talk. i feel so much better. asking all those questions and getting truthful answers- beyond my wildest expectations- but then- how was i to know what was the truth or not- really- it all sounded the same to me. but i felt better. relieved somehow- but i never asked you to undo what you'd done to me- and that was the sole purpose for my even speaking to you at all. i realized while we spoke- it was the only thing that kept us 'together' and once that tie was also broken- there would be nothing else. i decided to keep it- 'til further notice,' and let someone else decide when it would finally end. it made me feel important IN MY DREAM, but it makes me feel stupid in REAL LIFE.