dear i wunner if i am diary,
if i am the only one, it would not surprise me. like those shooting pains i get in between my toes and shoot up to my twat, yeah, indicative only to me. i made the awful mistake of mentioning it to my old neurologist once, a fucking major mishap never to be made again. he thought i was fucking crazy after that. i got a new doctor. i still get those pains, they ARE real, i just think they are lucky now and when i get them- i usually do something to increase my odds. if i am the only one though, wouldn't that suck? reallly? to be the only one in the whole world. it happens more than you think. some people don't believe in being singled out. that only one person can have one thought- at one moment. others believe that everything has an equal, a twin- a mirror image somewhere far off thinking exactly what you are- doing exactly what you are- exactly at the moment you are doing it. i think about the girl on the other side of the world who goes pee at the same time i do everyday alot. seriously, i have a foot anchored in both these worlds, where not only am i singled out and things happen to me that don't happen to ANYONE else, i can also see reflections of my life everywhere. i am so much like the world around me i have become opposite of what i am supposed to be. is it ok to know and understand that i am like this? or should i get a new doctor?
if i am the only one, it would not surprise me. like those shooting pains i get in between my toes and shoot up to my twat, yeah, indicative only to me. i made the awful mistake of mentioning it to my old neurologist once, a fucking major mishap never to be made again. he thought i was fucking crazy after that. i got a new doctor. i still get those pains, they ARE real, i just think they are lucky now and when i get them- i usually do something to increase my odds. if i am the only one though, wouldn't that suck? reallly? to be the only one in the whole world. it happens more than you think. some people don't believe in being singled out. that only one person can have one thought- at one moment. others believe that everything has an equal, a twin- a mirror image somewhere far off thinking exactly what you are- doing exactly what you are- exactly at the moment you are doing it. i think about the girl on the other side of the world who goes pee at the same time i do everyday alot. seriously, i have a foot anchored in both these worlds, where not only am i singled out and things happen to me that don't happen to ANYONE else, i can also see reflections of my life everywhere. i am so much like the world around me i have become opposite of what i am supposed to be. is it ok to know and understand that i am like this? or should i get a new doctor?