dear if there was only today diary,
feeling like the end of the road is around the corner, i took a left. i wanted to avoid the traffic anyway. i weighed myself at my dads today and got a welcomed shock, but i am still scratching my head at the number. how can i weigh the least i've weighed in however many years and still feel more fat than i've fucking ever felt in my entire non with child life. i am scratching my head- but it doesn't even itch. i miss the good feeling of joy in my heart. and if things weren't so shitty already, the goat wanted to interject his words of wisdom. fall upon deaf ears, i am dumb, i speak no longer.
feeling like the end of the road is around the corner, i took a left. i wanted to avoid the traffic anyway. i weighed myself at my dads today and got a welcomed shock, but i am still scratching my head at the number. how can i weigh the least i've weighed in however many years and still feel more fat than i've fucking ever felt in my entire non with child life. i am scratching my head- but it doesn't even itch. i miss the good feeling of joy in my heart. and if things weren't so shitty already, the goat wanted to interject his words of wisdom. fall upon deaf ears, i am dumb, i speak no longer.