dear i made it til 1AM diary,
looking at the moon, its a wonder i made it as long as i did. what a big puppy. eighteen years ago- i know what i was doing- what were you doing? i was keeping the exact same company- loving the exact same people i do today- plus now- a few extras. my contact list has grown over the years- but the core list is pretty much still the same. that is an accomplishment- i think. eighteen years ago today i was pregnant- hugely. eighteen years ago when the moon was this close to the earth before- i had yet to earn the title of 'whore,' but i was working on it. if i'd been given the idea- i prolly would have given it a try- there was a part of me already feeling dead inside. that is about how long i've been holding on- waiting for what we had to come back that was so strong. now that moon is big again- reaching closer from the sky to shine brighter on our sins- like it does almost every twenty years- reminding me it ain't to late to get over my fears.
looking at the moon, its a wonder i made it as long as i did. what a big puppy. eighteen years ago- i know what i was doing- what were you doing? i was keeping the exact same company- loving the exact same people i do today- plus now- a few extras. my contact list has grown over the years- but the core list is pretty much still the same. that is an accomplishment- i think. eighteen years ago today i was pregnant- hugely. eighteen years ago when the moon was this close to the earth before- i had yet to earn the title of 'whore,' but i was working on it. if i'd been given the idea- i prolly would have given it a try- there was a part of me already feeling dead inside. that is about how long i've been holding on- waiting for what we had to come back that was so strong. now that moon is big again- reaching closer from the sky to shine brighter on our sins- like it does almost every twenty years- reminding me it ain't to late to get over my fears.
