dear i didn't tell anyone until now diary,
i saw the hero last night. i did. it was a little after 5. surprisingly enough, i wasn't even stawking- this time around. i think that's prolly why i went all the way until now without sayin a word- and still ain't said a word and i aint gunna say a word cuz it hurt like a turd coming out of my ass sideways- dry- and extremely large and unforgiving. a vacation turd. you know the kind. the kind you remember- for a WHILE. do i hate him? nope. guess not. did he see me? nope. thank God. he was playing landlord it looked like. i got behind some traffic in the east lane- in case. in case he felt my tearing eyes glaring. it'll be a long time till i can forgive our justice system for letting him get away with the game of charades he played and won with my life- it'll be a long time till i can forgive him for never leaving his wife- but the one thing i will always believe that was true- was that love that we shared was far different than any i have ever knew- and he was a man better than few- or i thought he was until i found out- it was all lies- which made me what i am today... the whore.
i saw the hero last night. i did. it was a little after 5. surprisingly enough, i wasn't even stawking- this time around. i think that's prolly why i went all the way until now without sayin a word- and still ain't said a word and i aint gunna say a word cuz it hurt like a turd coming out of my ass sideways- dry- and extremely large and unforgiving. a vacation turd. you know the kind. the kind you remember- for a WHILE. do i hate him? nope. guess not. did he see me? nope. thank God. he was playing landlord it looked like. i got behind some traffic in the east lane- in case. in case he felt my tearing eyes glaring. it'll be a long time till i can forgive our justice system for letting him get away with the game of charades he played and won with my life- it'll be a long time till i can forgive him for never leaving his wife- but the one thing i will always believe that was true- was that love that we shared was far different than any i have ever knew- and he was a man better than few- or i thought he was until i found out- it was all lies- which made me what i am today... the whore.
