dear favorite day of my week again diary,
boy oh boy, thurdays sure do come all quick and shit when you ain't looking. i wasn't looking for this one. next thursday oughta be a good one cuz damnit one of these thursdays its gunna be time to slip these plants outside and that will be the day this whore is a happy fucking whore. fucking i love to get up in the morning and go outside and sit and look at the sun on my plant leaves. i take q-tips and water and dust them and talk to them and trim them and fluff up the soil and damn- i could just sit there all morning long and be one with them. it makes me so happy. i have a cactus blooming now- but it is ugly. i am glad it's happy tho. no blooms are ugly- i said that wrong- it just isn't as colorful as one would have hoped that it would have been. i'd be bragging about it to the goat if i still talked to him- but i don't. so oh well. sometimes i think about the goat- but i never think about texting him or calling him. i even go a different way to my mom's now. we go there on the way HOME from work- and then take a totally different way home. it works out better and seems to have less of an impact on me. i do so many things different now. Karma has been showing me all the new ways. Karma taught me to not be so nice to mother fuckers who aren't worthy of my niceness. Karma says to be nice to strangers if you're gunna be nice to people who don't deserve it.
boy oh boy, thurdays sure do come all quick and shit when you ain't looking. i wasn't looking for this one. next thursday oughta be a good one cuz damnit one of these thursdays its gunna be time to slip these plants outside and that will be the day this whore is a happy fucking whore. fucking i love to get up in the morning and go outside and sit and look at the sun on my plant leaves. i take q-tips and water and dust them and talk to them and trim them and fluff up the soil and damn- i could just sit there all morning long and be one with them. it makes me so happy. i have a cactus blooming now- but it is ugly. i am glad it's happy tho. no blooms are ugly- i said that wrong- it just isn't as colorful as one would have hoped that it would have been. i'd be bragging about it to the goat if i still talked to him- but i don't. so oh well. sometimes i think about the goat- but i never think about texting him or calling him. i even go a different way to my mom's now. we go there on the way HOME from work- and then take a totally different way home. it works out better and seems to have less of an impact on me. i do so many things different now. Karma has been showing me all the new ways. Karma taught me to not be so nice to mother fuckers who aren't worthy of my niceness. Karma says to be nice to strangers if you're gunna be nice to people who don't deserve it.
