dear once every so often diary,
ideas that come into my head make themselves at home because they know they will be there quite awhile. once something enters my head- it usually takes an act of God to get it out. i am depending on a good old fashioned case of memory loss to clean my slate. otherwise, i don't have a burning chance in hell at a normal life. if i could just wake up lost, in another city, with a new identity- i'd have it made. seriously, be as smart as i am now, as old as i am now, with all the basic shit i know- but erase everything that makes me who i am. i'd be a total blank slate. i know i would turn out the same exact way as i am now- cuz- i just know. but there would be no cuntface to worry about, no city employee, none of that nonsense. i could just be myself and be normal again without being a whore. or maybe i would just go global- and be a world wide whore.
ideas that come into my head make themselves at home because they know they will be there quite awhile. once something enters my head- it usually takes an act of God to get it out. i am depending on a good old fashioned case of memory loss to clean my slate. otherwise, i don't have a burning chance in hell at a normal life. if i could just wake up lost, in another city, with a new identity- i'd have it made. seriously, be as smart as i am now, as old as i am now, with all the basic shit i know- but erase everything that makes me who i am. i'd be a total blank slate. i know i would turn out the same exact way as i am now- cuz- i just know. but there would be no cuntface to worry about, no city employee, none of that nonsense. i could just be myself and be normal again without being a whore. or maybe i would just go global- and be a world wide whore.
