June 20, 2011

i use weapons

dear calling me in diary,

i am a brave bitch. honestly, i am. but there are two things that now scare me, shadows and heroes and heroes that make shadows. as much as it may surprise you to know that shadows frighten me, i am sure it comes as no big SHOCK that a hero would freak me out. that's why i wont spend much time explaining the nature of my fears there in this post. there are about 1500 other previous posts you can refer to for that information. shadows on the other hand scare the fucking whoreshit out of me because, for one, it is hard to tell sometimes where they've originated from. shadows can be tricky. shadows also have no smell, obviously, and their actual size is distorted, so is the shadow maker big or small, short or tall, you never know until it shadows over you and by then- it's way beyond the time to tell. if it were ever to come to the point where i would need a hero to remove a shadow, i believe i would learn to live in the shadows because it is safer to befriend the fears then sell your soul for protection from something that wont hurt you anyway.