dear lost at love diary,
my heart is almost empty at this point. there isn't much left. even in my dreams i cried last night, but at least i did sleep. i have seen all that was ever good in my world just slowly fade away and i am left with the remnants to piece back together AGAIN. i feel lost- without any sort of protection now. if i have to let my grump go, only becky will know who i am. she will be the only one who will no longer fear me- she will have to be my man. i cant even think about the days which wait for me ahead. it is still hard to accept the years which are behind me. i am determined to make this time i have sweet and comfortable and honestly, i wish it was just me and him. is that selfish of me? oh prolly. he fucking made everyone else fall in love with him too. now- the few fucking dollars that are left in the bank- must be split between all these fucking greedy idiots who never made ONE deposit until it's time for the account to close.
