dear a quick fix diary,
i've been thinking and i'll be the first one to readily admit, y'all can tell when i do my share of that- NOT OFTEN. i mean, i do all my thinking here- so you know when it does happen. with that said, it is fixin to happen again folks, so get the exhaust fans kickin. how can you fix something that has gone so terribly wrong over a period of time? well, i don't know. i suppose one of the first places you would start would be clear back at the beginning, where it all went wrong. the pages of time are heavy, especially when you have to go back so far. i dunno if it would be worth all the effort- for you- at all. sometimes it's best to start all over again, i'd think, and walk clean away from all of the mistakes in the past. maybe try and be honest and faithful this time and have one genuine relationship that will last. try and find someone who will accept you- for who you really are, that light hearted fun exciting man- who likes to fuck in the car. maybe the ugly in you will not come back if you are really loved like you should have been, you wont have to roam the earth and keep looking. i don't know what you're going to go, and i really don't care, but you are going to die of AIDS pretty soon, and nobody will be there.
