dear hailow diary,
what in the hail are you doing here and why has it taken me five months to introduce my blog? it is now MAY18th and i am just now putting down this welcome mat, i suppose ima stay. they ain't kicked me out yet anyway. high? neither am i. and not by choice- let me tell you. my birthday was the other day and it passed without event, YAY, and i don't feel any different. i am old now and for the first time understanding my opinions in life don't matter AT ALL to anyone- and they never really did. am i okay with that, well fuck to the hell no, but i have to be. i'm not dumb, but i'll play dumb on tv- in a heartbeat. i've learned to get by in life, always thinking i almost had something- almost was something, almost got somewhere, and then a hero pulled the rug out from under me, but the thing is, and it is a big thing, I LET HIM. accepting responsibility for the actions of my pussy is what my intentions are in this blog. somehow explaining every single thing i ever did leading up to what happened- i think will cause the guilt to vacate my patterns of thinking and so far, it seems to be working.
what in the hail are you doing here and why has it taken me five months to introduce my blog? it is now MAY18th and i am just now putting down this welcome mat, i suppose ima stay. they ain't kicked me out yet anyway. high? neither am i. and not by choice- let me tell you. my birthday was the other day and it passed without event, YAY, and i don't feel any different. i am old now and for the first time understanding my opinions in life don't matter AT ALL to anyone- and they never really did. am i okay with that, well fuck to the hell no, but i have to be. i'm not dumb, but i'll play dumb on tv- in a heartbeat. i've learned to get by in life, always thinking i almost had something- almost was something, almost got somewhere, and then a hero pulled the rug out from under me, but the thing is, and it is a big thing, I LET HIM. accepting responsibility for the actions of my pussy is what my intentions are in this blog. somehow explaining every single thing i ever did leading up to what happened- i think will cause the guilt to vacate my patterns of thinking and so far, it seems to be working.
