February 6, 2011

hurtin for certain

dear ignorant shit on ebay i want again diary,

well, my total on ebay is $148 bucks for makeup- but it's all urban decay- and it is all free shipping and all buy now. and i have NOT bought any of it yet, i am thinking because of the guilt. i can't do it. do i need it? no. do i want it? yeah. my priorities are fucked up. but i can't get it off my mind. it is very high quality make up- the very best kind. my eyes are getting heavy much earlier tonight, the news of a possible missed interaction today has had my brain on super flight. when i read the post i almost choked- cuz i don't utterly devote myself to checking there, but believe me, in my deepest heart, i am sure the message was not from the person from whom i would care. yet i can't stop wondering- and that is not fair. so thanks to the flagger- i will never get to know- who wants a truce- or where i was posta go. and it wasn't a safe day.