February 5, 2011

merry christmas early (op 10/31/10)

dear shrink me diary,

im so worried. today i go for my mental health evaluation and im all out of the medication that makes me normal. ive been pouting and clawing at the walls all weekend, slicing my arm and upper thigh 8 and 12 times each, using super glue and ice cream sandwiches to stop the bleeding. My eyebrows on my left side are gone, but ive shaved my dog and Elmer's glued a strip together, and I don't think anyone will notice with my bangs as long as they are. i'm hoping my multiple personality disorder diagnosis can be listed on axis II and maybe PTSD on axis I. My gaf score has to be over 70 or I cant get treatment- last time it was in the 80's, and i'm concerned that might be an issue. I am really looking forward to going to the popcorn shop and getting a double dip and a rootbeer and some carmelcheese corn tho. I may self medicate with ritalin before I go, and meditate, and do a half hour of basic yoga and eat an all beef hotdog and one by one nachos NOT. Basically, after I have a good nights sleep, an hour bath, an egg poptart with syrup and cottage cheese, watch TPIR, Y&R, and HLN, Ill be able to tackle almost anydamn thang  PLUS my appointment is with my favorite psychologist DARNIT HOW DID THAT HAPPEN so maybe i shouldn't worry so much afterall. pieces of the season