i thought YOU knew

dear fighting the urge to sleep diary,

i am a warrior. i am a princess with a sword. i can sling off the best of the best. but there is one beast i can not master, and that is sleep. it can take a hold of me in an instant and win. there will be no battle. i lay at the feet of the beast at all times- i cry at the mercy of its every wish. it calls me now- and i resist- but it knows i will succumb. i feel its clenches tighten and i will not deny its grip, it does no good. finally resting my head on the pillow- will comfort me in ways that always make me feel safe and needed.  for a whole lot of reasons- i heal in my bed- and become that person i was when you held me against your chest for those few moments when i know that you did love me. i will go there again now- only because i will take you with me and nobody else will be there- except becky.


 i love you. imda.