dear i don't want you to be my teacher diary,
i usually always enjoy dreaming. i do. i like to see my family and people i haven't seen for many years and practice situations and how i would handle them- and basically just live an alternate life- one i don't getta live when i am awake. sometimes, my dreams are seemingly so real- i ain't sure if i dreamed them or lived them. but this morning, just a minute ago, i woke myself up talking, begging for this dream to be a dream, and thankfully it was. i had signed up for a class at the community college- and i was so happy to be doing something again. my first day of class came, an evening class. and i went, and the city employee was the teacher. i was crushed. i knew it was illegal for me to be in the room with him- yet he told me i could stay. i feared it was a set up and left. i was so angry- i wanted my money back. all of it. i explained to anyone who would listen- how much i had learned already from that teacher- and i wasn't gunna pay and sign up to learn anymore- because he already made me a whore.
i usually always enjoy dreaming. i do. i like to see my family and people i haven't seen for many years and practice situations and how i would handle them- and basically just live an alternate life- one i don't getta live when i am awake. sometimes, my dreams are seemingly so real- i ain't sure if i dreamed them or lived them. but this morning, just a minute ago, i woke myself up talking, begging for this dream to be a dream, and thankfully it was. i had signed up for a class at the community college- and i was so happy to be doing something again. my first day of class came, an evening class. and i went, and the city employee was the teacher. i was crushed. i knew it was illegal for me to be in the room with him- yet he told me i could stay. i feared it was a set up and left. i was so angry- i wanted my money back. all of it. i explained to anyone who would listen- how much i had learned already from that teacher- and i wasn't gunna pay and sign up to learn anymore- because he already made me a whore.
