March 29, 2011

what mary taught me

dear hiding in plain sight diary,

wearing goggles is one way to avoid being recognized, if that is what you are trying to do. i usually just put on my makeup and get dressed up- people have no clue who i am. i look like a totally different person. i kindof like that about myself too, because that way i can tell who is real and who ain't. by gawd- if you can look at me when i am ugly- you deserve to look at me when i ain't. that's how i have learned so much about our world, by the way, more than i ever wanted to know. see, i usta not leave the house ugly. then i met this girl mary. mary changed everything for me. in lots of ways- i wish ida never met mary- but in more ways- mary liberated me- forever. what i took from mary was the idea that, IF A DUDE DON'T LOVE YOU WHEN YOU ARE FUGLY- THEN HE SHOULDN'T GET TO LOVE YOU WHEN YOU ARE PRETTY. then i just started living like that- because- why dress up to pay the cable bill? i figure- as long as i'm clean- in clean pajamas- i'm good. plus, it makes it really special when i do get dressed. AND it's less wear and tear on my two hundred dollar jeans. i haven't seen mary in many years. she prolly moved back to hawaii where they don't even wear clothes. and now that i got this new hair doo- it looks like i got up and got ready when i ain't even got up yet.