dear breakfast is served diary,
the mail already came. i know- amazing. what my mailman brought me today i have been waiting for since i sent my last pages of sweat to new york, my fucking last check from 914. it wont be my LAST LAST check, but it will be for a minute- he said until they find out where they are at now that they are back to full staff again. i should have moved out there. i really should have. but i am glad i didn't. i've been trusting my gut more and more lately- which i should have started doing in 2005, but for some reason didn't and look where that fucking got me, (in court) but since i have been relying upon the instincts of my wise belly- i have made incredibly dead on accurate decisions i can only assume were from the direction of my smart stomach. so i follow it with intense measure these days. nevertheless- i was happy to see that envelope today and the dictation from 914. he always sends a little personal note keeping me up to date on how everything is on the right coast of our country. he is still 'on' me about having my picture taken- but this time added a smiley face after his harsh words. fuck a picture anyway.
the mail already came. i know- amazing. what my mailman brought me today i have been waiting for since i sent my last pages of sweat to new york, my fucking last check from 914. it wont be my LAST LAST check, but it will be for a minute- he said until they find out where they are at now that they are back to full staff again. i should have moved out there. i really should have. but i am glad i didn't. i've been trusting my gut more and more lately- which i should have started doing in 2005, but for some reason didn't and look where that fucking got me, (in court) but since i have been relying upon the instincts of my wise belly- i have made incredibly dead on accurate decisions i can only assume were from the direction of my smart stomach. so i follow it with intense measure these days. nevertheless- i was happy to see that envelope today and the dictation from 914. he always sends a little personal note keeping me up to date on how everything is on the right coast of our country. he is still 'on' me about having my picture taken- but this time added a smiley face after his harsh words. fuck a picture anyway.
