raising the bar

dear seeing what i can do about nothing diary,

i'm still here. wondering. listening. thinking. always thinking- writing in my head. it's a good thing y'all only get snippits of what goes on up there. everything that happens used to be private and now i write it down- but i don't write it all down because i just cant sit in front of this stupid thing all day- well i could- but i choose not to, because that would suck- even though it would be much safer across the board- it would suck because it would be boring and my ass would get sore. but i could sit here for a good part of the day. which i usually do- for the safety issues. it's nice to sit here because nobody can see me. but i can see everyone else. i might get up later and take a bath. yes. and then write about how good it was. unless it was perfect and then i'll write about how perfect it was. ima make it hot. really hot. ima make it really long. and ima use all the hot water.