May 21, 2011

suck my beaver

dear if that is what you have in mind diary,

i don't do this a whole lot, but when i do, i do it deeply. i have been thinking all morning long about what it would be like if it was completely different. it is insane to sit here and think it would be better, even i know that is quite the stretch, but it would be different prolly. naw, sometimes i miss the goat. i miss the times with the goat before the hero came along. then i miss the times with the goat in the bath tub. and then i miss the time with the goat out of state, when we would text until i would pass out. i miss how the goat made me laugh at things i didn't know were even funny. i miss how the goat made me want certain things i didn't even know were yummy. i miss the way he was such a big boy and not afraid of the world around him. but he was a dick- played a trick- and said I SWITCHED TO THE DARK SIDE. what the fuck ever. and i thought my words were clever.