dear in the land of make believe diary,
since yesterday is gone and tomorrow ain't here yet and time spends like money nobody has, i'm glad i don't have any loans out- well except for my house- and i don't count that really- cuz otherwise i'd have to rent and that be twice as much. i remember renting. it sucked. time sure slows down when you own. i think about the time i've spent here, eleven years, and all the changes in my life. it's weird looking back on things that have come and gone here and all the things that were so wrong and so right. my children who were children are so grown up now, it was here in this home where that happened, as the tears roll down my cheeks right now- i cant explain that because i am not sad for them. i pity myself for not spending more time doing what i should have instead of doing what i did, instead of trying to change everything- i should have just lived. but all in all and at the end of the day, i got a nice little house and two boys that will say that they had the best mom ever who gave them the best things in life and took them to california and florida and south dakota and six flags all the time and drove them crazy pretending to be the unibomber's wife.
since yesterday is gone and tomorrow ain't here yet and time spends like money nobody has, i'm glad i don't have any loans out- well except for my house- and i don't count that really- cuz otherwise i'd have to rent and that be twice as much. i remember renting. it sucked. time sure slows down when you own. i think about the time i've spent here, eleven years, and all the changes in my life. it's weird looking back on things that have come and gone here and all the things that were so wrong and so right. my children who were children are so grown up now, it was here in this home where that happened, as the tears roll down my cheeks right now- i cant explain that because i am not sad for them. i pity myself for not spending more time doing what i should have instead of doing what i did, instead of trying to change everything- i should have just lived. but all in all and at the end of the day, i got a nice little house and two boys that will say that they had the best mom ever who gave them the best things in life and took them to california and florida and south dakota and six flags all the time and drove them crazy pretending to be the unibomber's wife.
