dear during the pause diary,
being free is being there and being there is being square and i cant believe they might shut the post office down in milmine. we always went to the fireworks in milmine. took the boys over there to the huge display. i hated going because of the noise, but i went because i was scared to be alone. i have been so busy all of this day, i even got out of bed and went far away. back in the bed now and fat as a cow it is hard to be depressed about shit when you don't know how to obsess about things that make no difference anymore and haven't for awhile since i've accepted my status as a whore. that meat i threatened to make today was the best i ever had. i made william take some over to my dad. now that william has left to go home and poor harry has sailed off to cuba, ima go to bed and sleep until i'm stupid-uh.
