dear a year ago today diary,
i had an interesting day a year ago today. i fucking passed out over at my friend's house. it was stupid how it all happened. then what happened tomorrow made it worse, but that was tomorrow and tomorrow wasn't even technically even there yet, so dealing with today's events was bad enough- last year. it happened the way it usually does- completely by surprise. the curtain came crashing down. it kinda seemed like i may have knew it was coming though- even if it was only for a milli-second. trying to describe the warning i had, believe it or not, is coming easier 365 days later than it did the day it happened. the world became cloudy and muffled and then went quiet and very bright and all at once it got super loud and pitch dark at the same time and then everything was blank for what seemed like forever and ever and ever. when my eyes did open- i still couldn't move and had no idea where i was at or who was looking at me. but two minutes later i was normal again and wondering how long that shit lasted. then for the next few days there is always the chance of an 'aftershock,' so walking around on eggshells is always fun around the unibomber, especially during the middle of a court case where i am being persecuted for being nothing short of a standard whore. but what a whore i am. damn.
