dear yee haw diary,
thank God ima country girl. i ain't got a job and i ain't goin in the kitchen. i ain't said much and i ain't started bitchin. if he don't give me money then i'll say i am goin FISHIN..... cuz right now my ear is really itchin. it is SO nice to have a dog that ain't dyin anymore too. it really is. i didn't want to get rid of my blanket yet. i wanted to revert back to the old plan (burning my blanket and scattering the ashes off the cliff on pacific coast highway 1 this fall) but if it came right down to it- ida wrapped my baby in my blanket before ida done all that. he honestly hasn't acted this energetic and bouncy and sweet since he was about 4 years old prolly. that would take him back to the year 2006- so could i be possible he's been sick for the past five years? fuck me- i have. i've been sick since 2005- since september 12th, to be exact. funny and not so funny- AT ALL- when you look at it. knowing i just NOW am getting MY life back, knowing i'm just NOW realizing all of the damage that was truly done, well, only do i think NOW the healing process has truly begun.
i am SO VERY ready to burn my blanket on september 1, 2011 at 5:15pm.
