dear let me remind you diary,
i can lay down and type upside down now. it is a darn good thing too- because yesterday i didn't leave the bed (except to pee) until 7 PM and then i got right back in bed because i didn't realize i had wandered so far from my blanket. i made it to the stove in the kitchen. i got a little garbage sack and came right back. it's what made me happy at the time. i use a LOT of q-tips, especially lately since the dog quit dying. he had another yeast infection in his passenger side ear. fucking he always gets those. CHRONIC. the new meds have cleaned that shit right up- FINALLY- i'm so happy for river and his new lease on life. i don't ever want to know why the things that happened to me happened, but i want the world to know it changed me. i am a better person for knowing the truth. i will never stoop to that selfless level again. amen.
