dear a much different place diary,
when this blog is no longer available to the general public, i wonder where everyone will go? will you search for a new and improved blog to satisfy a curiosity or will you just say "fuck it," and be done with the whole stupid notion? i'll never be a blog reader and as much as i hate to admit it, ima miss doing this everyday. i miss doing this sixty times a day like i used to, but things are much different now and frankly, i need the time to hate my life again. i've always hated my life, but now, now i have come to the faint and harsh realization that SOME (but not all) of what i've been told all these years about my son, about my family, and about some of the core fundamental things i believe in are not true and that hurts me deep in a place i never wanted to go. be it so, like always, i am left with the mess.
when this blog is no longer available to the general public, i wonder where everyone will go? will you search for a new and improved blog to satisfy a curiosity or will you just say "fuck it," and be done with the whole stupid notion? i'll never be a blog reader and as much as i hate to admit it, ima miss doing this everyday. i miss doing this sixty times a day like i used to, but things are much different now and frankly, i need the time to hate my life again. i've always hated my life, but now, now i have come to the faint and harsh realization that SOME (but not all) of what i've been told all these years about my son, about my family, and about some of the core fundamental things i believe in are not true and that hurts me deep in a place i never wanted to go. be it so, like always, i am left with the mess.
