dear it was a surprise i played on myself diary,
have you ever played a trick on yourself? its hard to do- and get away with. but i did it. it is the first time i got away with really surprising myself because i always ruin it before i get to the part where its time for the reveal. oh but not this time. i really pulled it off. i was shocked. i had a dream i was going to do it JUST like that someday- and i did- today. it was fun. i saw my old boss tonight. she asked me if i was working. i told her about new york- but i didn't go into all the details. i couldn't believe she remembered the unibomber. of course, she remembered him as, 'the asshole,' but i assured her we had all done allot of growing up in twenty years. "people can change," i told her and she responded, "everybody but you." fuck if i don't hear that once a week. i think i have changed. i think i am allot smarter and wiser and way more accepting of things than i ever used to be. i don't give a shit about half the things i used to. so here we are at the most bewitching hour- almost 5am. i just ate mcdonalds. i wiped some serious food out. man i am stuffed. pancakes, biscuits and gravy- a side order of eggs, bacon egg and cheese biscuit- spaghetti jar full of milk- all the glasses are dirty- but there was a clean jar. i used it. i save a few of those jars for shit. they come in handy. ima thrifty bitch huh. fifty fucking glasses- and they are all dirty next to the sink- while the dishwasher sits empty. that's kindof sad iffin you were to ask me- but nobody ever does.
have you ever played a trick on yourself? its hard to do- and get away with. but i did it. it is the first time i got away with really surprising myself because i always ruin it before i get to the part where its time for the reveal. oh but not this time. i really pulled it off. i was shocked. i had a dream i was going to do it JUST like that someday- and i did- today. it was fun. i saw my old boss tonight. she asked me if i was working. i told her about new york- but i didn't go into all the details. i couldn't believe she remembered the unibomber. of course, she remembered him as, 'the asshole,' but i assured her we had all done allot of growing up in twenty years. "people can change," i told her and she responded, "everybody but you." fuck if i don't hear that once a week. i think i have changed. i think i am allot smarter and wiser and way more accepting of things than i ever used to be. i don't give a shit about half the things i used to. so here we are at the most bewitching hour- almost 5am. i just ate mcdonalds. i wiped some serious food out. man i am stuffed. pancakes, biscuits and gravy- a side order of eggs, bacon egg and cheese biscuit- spaghetti jar full of milk- all the glasses are dirty- but there was a clean jar. i used it. i save a few of those jars for shit. they come in handy. ima thrifty bitch huh. fifty fucking glasses- and they are all dirty next to the sink- while the dishwasher sits empty. that's kindof sad iffin you were to ask me- but nobody ever does.
