May 17, 2011

baby love

dear it will always be different from now on diary,

pretty soon there will be a little nursery here again and a car seat for the car. pretty soon my airplane bag will double as a diaper bag and we'll need a stroller for the mall. honestly i never saw it coming this soon, but just the otherday- i shed a tear because i wished i could have another baby someday. so when the news fell into my lap, it shocked me- but i wasn't mad. i knew that i could help take care of another child and it kindof made me glad. my father who is older now- their lives will overlap, that to me means more than i can explain- that child will have a connection to the past. one more person who know and loved my mom will hold and love him dearly. i'll never forget seeing my dad hold my son- that very first time, i could see my mom over his shoulder looking down at them in Heaven's light- I hope to see that beautiful scene again on Christmas night.