dear i am still mad at my snake and wide awake diary,
i suppose now sleeping all day has a benefit, if you wanted to be awake all night for a reason. but again, i have no reason. so what will happen is- i will sleep the whole day away until the afternoon and then it will be rush rush rush... fuck i hate it that i know myself so well, but i hate surprises more. ima fold towels shortly. i cant keep writing all night. i had terrible dreams. i'll pay pal you a dollar forty seven if you can get me to forget what they were about. the pumpkin part was fine. i bet it was the cake i ate that made me dream that shit. i dunno what it was but it really needs to quit. my past still has a grip on me and it is really not fair at all. if i could make it all end like all my other pasts have, believe me i prolly would.
i suppose now sleeping all day has a benefit, if you wanted to be awake all night for a reason. but again, i have no reason. so what will happen is- i will sleep the whole day away until the afternoon and then it will be rush rush rush... fuck i hate it that i know myself so well, but i hate surprises more. ima fold towels shortly. i cant keep writing all night. i had terrible dreams. i'll pay pal you a dollar forty seven if you can get me to forget what they were about. the pumpkin part was fine. i bet it was the cake i ate that made me dream that shit. i dunno what it was but it really needs to quit. my past still has a grip on me and it is really not fair at all. if i could make it all end like all my other pasts have, believe me i prolly would.
