dear here we go diary,
i don't have any idea why that is really, but i wish i did. as well, i wish i hadn't of eaten that sausage because as i burp the taste of it comes back and it is not the most pleasant. thinking of a baby coming into our lives again, i don't know, really wasn't what i had in mind for the immediate future, but now that the plan is the plan, i can do that. shit i got room on the walls for another two hundred baby pictures easy. we already have a crib with a brand new mattress that the plastic hasn't been taken off of yet. i dunno where the grump will sleep, prolly under the crib, but he loves babies. i'd only hoped to have my own life straight- but then i said that eighteen years ago before i had my own babies. a grandchild, a child who will adore me more than his mother, (they always do) a child who will cling to me and love me like no other. finally, someone to share becky with. i know i am supposed to be mad, but, i'm not. i miss my little babies. i will not take for granted my time with them- this time around. i wont.
i don't have any idea why that is really, but i wish i did. as well, i wish i hadn't of eaten that sausage because as i burp the taste of it comes back and it is not the most pleasant. thinking of a baby coming into our lives again, i don't know, really wasn't what i had in mind for the immediate future, but now that the plan is the plan, i can do that. shit i got room on the walls for another two hundred baby pictures easy. we already have a crib with a brand new mattress that the plastic hasn't been taken off of yet. i dunno where the grump will sleep, prolly under the crib, but he loves babies. i'd only hoped to have my own life straight- but then i said that eighteen years ago before i had my own babies. a grandchild, a child who will adore me more than his mother, (they always do) a child who will cling to me and love me like no other. finally, someone to share becky with. i know i am supposed to be mad, but, i'm not. i miss my little babies. i will not take for granted my time with them- this time around. i wont.
