dear a month ago today diary,
my life changed so much a month ago today. i will not soon forget that day. just cruising at that perfect altitude without a care in the world and then INSTANT TURBULENCE. it happens. i know it happens. it's supposed to happen. and i sit here and cry and whine when i know it could have been so much worse. i've already had my share of worse though and got it super early in life, so now when shit happens and cant compare to that- it's all just crushing- and makes me re-evaluate everything. it is for that reason i don't know what i will do when something ACTUALLY does happen that matters. i prolly will just fucking lose it completely and my plane will go down nose first. please do not listen to what the black box says.
